Several people mentioned, after reading my notes about books yesterday, what people think of you based on your books. I hadn't really thought about that (although I would put any steamy romance novels out of the public eye, for sure -- I remember how shocked I was to discover that one of my profs in college read romance novels, and how fast I told everyone in the department). But then I remembered that our houseguests had looked all over the living room bookshelves while I was making tea, and decided to look and see what conclusions they might have drawn about me and my family.
I can't imagine. Music, history, science, novels, craft books, more novels, religion and philosophy, and more novels. Photo albums, gardening books, a few assorted dictionaries. Kids' books. Half a dozen books about planning a wedding. So... a musician/ craftsperson with an interest in the humanities, who has been involved in a wedding in the not-too-distant past, has kids, and reads a lot of novels. Yeah, that's pretty close.
But that may not be what they thought at all. They might have thought I was a terribly light-minded person, a dilettante with more mystery novels than classics, and no political science whatsoever. Not a single word by Pablo Neruda, no spy novels, and an unreasonable number of craft books. Multiple copies of knitting books? What's with her?
Actually, I am doing the armscye shaping on Hopkins now, an undertaking which requires immediate access to numerous books. My bold anti-agoraphobia program has caused me to have three appointments this week before work, as well as my three evenings out. Clearly, I am not getting to the gym much this week (although the Poster Queen pointed out that the gym in question is open twenty-four hours a day, so there is nothing to stop me from going at, say, 5:00 am, and getting back in time to make the boys' breakfast. The Poster Queen says bracing things like this.) I will have a bit of extra knitting time in waiting rooms, though. I expect to get the back completed before Easter at this rate. I am therefore continuing to approach the question of sleeve shaping in an orderly and scientific fashion.
The Knitty article on calculating sleeve caps said you just have to use a little trigonometry. Who are they kidding? There is no such thing as a little trigonometry. Either you have taken a course in it, or you don't know quite what the word means. No one decides to dip into trigonometry a little bit, to read a couple of articles on the subject over lunch, or to have a cocktail-party acquaintanceship with the topic.
Abandoning the Knitty article, I turn to The Big Book of Knitting. It shows a clear schematic of a set-in sleeve, and says that the stitches are bound off in a rounded shape, with the last 2 3/4" bound of straight across. Okay, I can handle that. The it says, "the rounded part ... should be at least 2" less than the armhole length on the front and back." Unable to turn this into English, I pick up Knitting By Design. Thank goodness I store my books vertically.
This book has charts. Armed with the chart, I measure the front of Hopkins from the first bind-off for the armscye to the shoulder. It is 10", which is already larger than the book recommends. Never mind. The chart tells me that my sleeve cap should be 7" long. I calculate the proper length of the sleeve from wrist to armscye and find that it is 17". I measure Siv's sleeve to that point and find that it is -- 17". So I can follow the sleeve pattern confidently to that point. I measure the height of the sleeve cap, which should be 7", and find that it is -- 9". And it was longer than that before. No wonder I did not like it.
So I must calculate how to get all the necessary decreases into 7", when the pattern has it figured for about 10". I could figure from my gauge -- or by directly measuring -- how many stitches will make 2 3/4 ". Then, judging from the width of the sleeve... Oh, my goodness. Maybe trigonometry would be better. Or a dropped sleeve. What's wrong with a dropped sleeve, after all? Possibly the fact that I have already made the front and much of the back of a sweater that calls for a set-in sleeve.
Pull out Mary Thomas's Knitting Book. She says that the width of the sleeve at the beginning of the sleeve cap should be the size of the armhole minus 1" -- presumably, in this case, 19". That seems rather large, but I trust Mary. She recommends measuring this out on paper -- the width of the sleeve cap and the height of the sleeve cap have been figured and can be drawn in, and now you draw a nice freehand curve for the shape of the sleeve cap. Cut it out, and use it to block your sweater.
Okay. I have 7" to get from 19" (the width of the sleeve at the beginning of the sleeve cap) to 2 3/4". I will bind off an inch at either end right away, making it 17". So I merely have to subtract 2 3/4 from 17, getting 14 1/4, and then divide that by 7. I see that this is going to be a number slightly larger than 2. Let's just call it 2. I'm getting about 4 rows to the inch, so I will have to get half an inch decreased on every row. That looks like a decrease at each end of each row will be required -- about twice as fast a rate as the original Siv pattern calls for. Granted that there are too many numbers in this paragraph, I still think it will work. A little graph paper may be in order.
I'm sure your eyes have already slid off to some other, more interesting blog. However, I am going to keep this to come back to when it is time to shape the sleeves. Have I proven that it is essential to have lots of knitting books? Or that someone still needs to write a more perfect knitting book? Or only that I am too dense to be able to grasp things the first time they are presented to me, and have to have them phrased in lots of different ways before I can understand them? No matter. I was able to find all these books, regardless of color or size, pull them out, and put them tidily away when I finished, without even having to leave the computer. I consider that this proves the superiority of my book-arranging system over that of Southern Living. They will not be coming over to photograph my living room any time soon, either.
she does sound surprised. I think she figures I have gone to some other stylist. "My family is looking kind of shaggy," I said. Sometimes four or five of us go at once and take up her whole morning, but my husband put his foot down and took #2 son to a barber last week. He couldn't see his grandparents looking like that. Poor kids. #1 son held out for Cecilia.
So next Saturday I will have a haircut. I also drove myself to class when Partygirl was out of town (usually, if she doesn't go, I don't go either), drove to the grocery in the dark, and answered my phone a number of times. I have been reading my anti-agoraphobia book in my agoraphobe's garden. See, back in the far corner? To the left of this photo is the garden, composed mostly of crape myrtle trees. Here is the view from the chair. It was raining at the time -- sometime last June, I think. Right now it isn't as lush as this, but there are still plenty of vertical elements.
mental images of you. Sometimes seeing a picture of a person you've developed a mental image of a can be a shock, though. I had always thought that Susan Stamberg of NPR was a large black woman given to wearing Chanel suits. When I ran into a picture of her (looking up her special cranberry relish recipe), I was startled. I thought Terry Gross was a Diane Sawyer type, too. Just goes to show you can't tell what a person looks like from her voice. Or, perhaps, from her blog.

offers no shelter, an appointment means that you are trapped in a place, a freeway is hard to get off of once you are on it. I don't know. It may be that all the things on the list really have in common is their connection with agoraphobia.
grew up in California. And I don't like to drive long distances, because I drive an old car. I don't like to drive to unfamiliar places, because I get lost easily. I don't like to drive at night, because I cannot see well in the dark any more. There may be others that I can't think of right now. And, if I do nothing about this, there will undoubtedly be more developing over time. The result of this long -- and growing -- list of completely separate reasons to avoid different kinds of driving is that there are very few situations in which I can drive with comfort. Eventually, I suppose, I will not be able to drive at all. 
I assumed that my dislike of shopping (except in book stores and yarn shops) was because I work in a store. Naturally, I would not want to shop on my days off. But I work in a bookstore. You might think that, if I avoided shopping because I get tired of stores, it would be bookstores that I avoided. But in fact, I find it very easy and enjoyable to shop for books. I almost never shop for clothes. Even when I actually need clothes, I put it off for months and then do it online. In fact, although in the past year I have gone down several dress sizes, I have bought exactly three new pieces of clothing. I normally buy three books every week, yet I have only bought three pieces of clothing in a year, in spite of an obvious actual need for clothes. The average American woman buys an article of clothing every week -- probably a lot more than she needs, but I have obviously gone too far the other direction. I can tell you my supposed reasons for this, but an examination of my reasons shows pretty clearly that they are not real.
Agoraphobia is often connected with panic attacks. I have only experienced panic attacks in driving on those scary roads I told you about, and driving in winter weather. Agorophobes who experience panic attacks unexpectedly and without warning may find that this becomes the center of their lives -- when and where will the next attack come, and how can they avoid it? It seems very likely, when I am driving in snow, that I will die from sheer terror. I laugh about this -- not at the time, of course -- but I have to admit that worrying over it consumes a lot of my attention in the winter. As soon as snow is predicted, I begin worrying about having to drive in it. This is the only one of my aversions that I am really not able to avoid. It would be a very good thing if I could get over that fear.
I'll let you know.
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